atrocious day today!

i received the letter i forwarded to the deped division office about my request for transfer from maya nhs to san remigio nhs and to my utter dismay, it was disapproved. the school head of san remigio nhs justified that there were many english majors and some of them were actually handling not their majors anymore! i was just confused because i was convinced by my former mentors from this school to seek for transfer because two english teachers were about to go. One of them went to china for a greener pasture and the other one is on the verge of retiring this march. now i pity myself for being unwanted in my own alma mater, a stranger in my own town and an unwelcomed trying hard neophyte teacher relentlessly finding a niche in the pedagogical arena. many things befog my seemingly optimistic mind which has now turned into a paranoid, bursting, enmity whose purgation makes it even the worst i have ever felt in years. i keep asking myself why i displease them. or what would placate their prejudice against me? what have i done to deserve such unfair treatment? am i really such a threat to them? who are they? please help me.